Listening to : Lemonade – Chris Rice
There's a saying : when life gives you lemons, you make a lemonade. So that means, you should make something out of what you've got. Right now, I don't know what I've got and what to make with what I had had. It's complicated, yes. Being thankful of what you've got is the right thing to do, but what if the right thing to do is not the best thing for you? I'm stuck between yes or no, between one and another, between happiness and less.
I'm overdoing this. I'm just blowing up something small. Huehehe. It's crazy. I'm nothing like that. I make best of my lemonades. I miss lounging with completely nothing to do with my friends. Talking endlessly while sipping some drinks. I miss walking home at night. It's almost impossible now. It's just (yea, I'm crying). I can't finish that sentence.
This year is almost over. A lot of memories were made. There were a lot of smiles too. Few have been very special. On that tiresome night, November 8, a smile made my day. It made me realize what I did exceeded expectations and made me realize that that night was something special. Haha (embarrassing myself here!). That smile was my prize for a good job I had done for that special night.
D*mn it! There were tears and cries. There had been a lot of loves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's what I like the most! I went to the old town twice this year. I sat on street sign in the highway. I went bicycling. I don't know how to f*cking describe it, but it had been real fun.
I want to smile, I'll smile for you boy
Smile for You – Dewargon
Smile back at you.