i know that someone is hiding something from me.
it makes me sad but i forgive that person for doing so. that person has reasons.
i am really hurt but i trust that person. so i forgive that person.
this ends here, let’s never mention it again: it is hidden from me. right?
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i am really sleepy right now and about to sleep. my eyes are soooo heavy i don’t think i can wake up tomorrow.
this morning, before exam, abe (a little bit forced :P) and i did the praying. for me, it’s really special. really special :)
t’s a sad moment for me about three minutes before i started writing this post. so, let’s take a moment for a second to mourn, okay?
what the hell did i mourn for? a very close personal acquaintance of mine died three minutes ago. we were frenemies; from the start to the end, i guess, to right now as well. forever and ever, i am going to hate that beloved acquaintance of mine.
okay, i was being hyperbolic. it did not die or anything. but it just pissed me off to the max.
that beloved/hated acquaintance of mine is adobe photoshop. i was using it to doodle a design for my friend’s 17th birthday party invitation. i had the brushes, resources, and most important : the concept all set up and ready. i started drawing and error occurred (you know those times using windows, when programs just stop responding and it had to stop? yeaa! that occurred!).
i already made the front and back cover and was in the middle of creating the insides when it happened. i was reading a real life passport for ideas (it’s a tourist themed party) when it happened. so total there were three designs and i had not saved all of them. and it just closed.
d*mn!
you’ve been hit by a smooth criminal
smooth criminal by michael jackson
… i have been writing my research proposal.
i am researching about language. it interests me. it excites me. but it is so f***ing complex and boring.
why?
because, in the place where i am (read : gonz) is definitely going to make a damn fuss over each and every word written which eventually lead to an utterly pointless meaningless debate over NOTHING!
words are just words. READ BETWEEN THE LINES. sometimes i don’t think certain people (PLURAL) are mature enough to do so and just read what’s written.
what essential is invisible to the eyes
i’m sorry, i’m just too bored to think calmly.
timothy, happy 3or4 months or whatever monthlyversary we are in right now!
that' doesn’t matter, they’re just numbers and (as my favorite book, my lovely little prince would say) grown-ups love numbers, let grown-ups think about it.
well, thank you for these couple of months. i’m really happy having you supporting me. and FYI, you have my support 100% no matter what :)
although, few weeks ago all we did was fight all week long. i cried, you were mad. but we went thru it, together. :)
you are one very special guy and i love you!
and, you’d make one hell of a canadian :P GOOD LUCK, LOVE!
YOU BELONG WITH ME by TAYLOR SWIFT
You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do
I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.
Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me
i heart this song!
okay, this post may not sounds like me but this is really truly how i feel
see, LOL a lot!
and i just read this on gonzaga festival twitter : GonzFest09TELAH DIBUKA AUDISI BAND GONZAGA FESTIVAL 2009! CONTACT ABBE (085716184229)!! SMS & CALL 24/7 nonstop..
so, please contact and audition! but please, DO NOT CALL 24/7 :P if somebody does, when will i get to call him? or he gets to call me? LOL again! btw, i had a feeling that erc wrote it. that’s how she writes his name.
this post, as the title shows, is just something to fill up this blog. okay? LOL!
as you can see from previous blogposts that my favorite book is the little prince. i am not going to explain why it is my favorite book :)
in my life i only had one flower given to me, rara gave me a red flower with a long green stem (i don’t know what the hell it is called) on valentine’s day 2008. i like that flower, it is cute. but my favorite flower is yellow daisy. it is bright and adorable. so if anybody were to give me one, i love you! haha!
i am listening to you belong with me by taylor swift. her songs are always so sweet and relatable my life :) i just heard this song yesterday (sat, 19 september 2009) watching MTV VMA’s and the first person came to my mind was timothy satya abieza. hehe :) and yesterday as well, is probably our first saturday-night out.. haha! it’s always monday-nights, sunday-nights, or thursday-nights with us and last night was fun :) went to didut’s surprise birthday party, drop gleny off at her house, just a nice drive the two of us :)
*fair warning : this is my blog, i can write anything i want to write here! this shouldn’t matter to anyone, because all of this is most special for me*
now, i am going to bed. i bid my goodnight and have a goodnight!
here is how it went:
bell rang, went to abe’s class to tell him something really important, got emotional and cried, went to ma’am Rini and did an oral test, went to moderator to print YB21 layout schedule, took phone out of pocket to take a picture of the schedule, there was a message and it read :
INFO UPH, u/ Jadwal interview beasiswa, atas nama LAURENZIA LUNA pada hari Jumat, 18 Sept 09 (BESOK LUSA) jam 14.00-14.15, Gd. E lntai 2, ruang 201. Ketidak hadiran saudara pada saat interview DIANGGAP MENGUNDURKAN DIRI. Terima kasih. Sender UPH.
after that i went to YB21 meeting at room 20. jesbon erc gleny were on the front (they’re the big guys of YB and YV 21: really going to work hard to support them:) ) and i told them i got the interview and gave conratulations. and then i got congratulation(s) from abe :) iloveyou, madu.
and before i went home, danu gave me a job to be Gonzaga Open House liaison officer and i’ve been aftering that job since forever and i got it :) i’m going to be the tour guide, hehehe :)
hehe, the end of this school day turned out great.
oh, and on the English oral test, this happened
Ma’am Rini (MR) : re-tell the story of King Midas without reading.
Luna (L) : *re-told the story of King Midas, without reading*
some Q&A’s
MR : next, what is the synonym of mercy?
L : mercy?umm, thank you (merci = French).
MR : *laughed* is that your final answer?
L : yes, the synonym is thank you.
MR : *still laughed*
L : wait, that’s in french. *looked stupid*
MR : *laughed some more* okay, that’s enough. that’s it, thank you.
it was really weird and embarrassing. haha!
terima kasih Tuhan Yesus, L.
it’s so sad.
PERGI TANPA PESAN by SORE
Jauh perjalanan
mencari intan pujaan
aduhai
dimana puan
mengapa pergi tanpa pamitan
Lembah kuturuni
bukit nan tinggi ku daki
aduhai
Tak kunjung jumpa
mengapa hilang tak tentu rimba
Laut hempaskan ku padanya
bintang tunjukkan arah
oh angin bisikkanlah malam ini
Hati cemas bimbang
harapan timbul tenggelam
aduhai
permata hati
mungkinkah kelak berjumpa lagi
Oh angin bisikkanlah malam ini
Hati cemas bimbang
harapan timbul tenggelam
permata hati
mungkinkah kelak bersua lagi
not the song (well the song is a little bit saddening).
i wrote about having a bad feeling that something bad that’s going to happen, the feeling still with me. something really bad is going to happen. i don’t know what (well duh! if i know what it is, why would i be really worried?) but i know that i don’t want to be alone if something bad does happen.
i’m so sorry if i do anything wrong or cause that hurt anybody’s feelings or anything. and also thank you so much, for everybody in everything. i am so thankful.
i’m sad and scared; and if tell anybody it would just cause worries and i don’t want to do that. so please don’t take this emotionally or seriously.
i’m no good at telling anybody about how i feel or expressing how i feel because i never know how to. i just know how to listen to people. i just know how to put other people first, before myself. i’m alone because i make myself lonely.
and i’m really good at making sure people don’t hear or see me crying. i am a really troubled person. i’m 17 and all i want to be is a kid; because i never know how it feels to be one.
but i was too young to know how to love her – the little prince
phone, please ring; L.
okay, i was a little bit crazy (read : normal) at school today that means i got my groove back and now ready for work!
i had so much fun today @moderator lip-syncing to jackson 5’s i want you back and, basically, impersonating michael jackson (tried his Motown 25 Billie Jean performance but failed: OF COURSE!). and i also i made my own signature moonwalk (read : obviously-empty headedly walk backwards).
and today suddenly out of nowhere i want to learn french just to read the original version of antoine de saint exupery’s the little prince. but i guess, this is the kind of idea that comes and goes every once in a while. but really, i want to learn french just because of that reason. there’s nothing wrong with that, right? wait, why am i asking you? this is what i want! big LOL!
yes ladies and gentlemen whoever read this awesomely written blog of mine, i publicly announce that i do have an addiction to saint exupery’s the little prince. it is ultimately the best book ever written. on one side it’s a children’s book which children can understand very easily. but behind the easy part, the big philosophy of life is brought up very well by saint exupery.
to add another happiness in this gleeful day: i’m in a really good mood today and good hair day too!
i am listening to a very sweet french song : hymne a l’amour and my studying-french boyfriend called to say goodnight.
je t’aime timothy
Bu Irma’s homework but I AM SO BORED and TIRED and SLEEPY!
i really don’t want to do it, i want to go to bed!
and btw, i just found out that the history paper ought to be submitted tomorrow!
quoted from abe: fucking insane!
it has been a very long long long long long long time since i blog (for me this is relatively a long time). and i am really sleepy right now, i won’t write so much (what?! LOL!)
quoted from the little prince : two billions grown ups.
am i one of the two billions?
a. yes (OMFG!)
b. no (am i going to be one?)
i am on the edge of breaking down, REALLY TRULY! on monday i had a meet up with PDXT for a very great friend, Aryo’s farewell. he got a scholarship to USA. hanging out with the guys (literally, i was the only girl) made me missed PDXT so so much and i want to be with them.
sadly, it effects my life. it shouldn’t be, but i am bothered. thinking about missing PDXT overwhelmed my life in Gonzaga. that is why i can’t enjoy anything that is happening at gonz. sad, for me it is very sad, but it is happening.
what i miss most is the most marvelous group of friends you can think of : ina riandita irma aditr yuki aryo gigi revfi manda peng cath tama senna (yang ini tergolong i miss you banget!) janu (ini jugaaa!) sarah
auk ah, pokoknya 103 anak PDXT aja deh.
but, i have to be realistic and reasonable and open-minded : i enjoy PDXT very well with all the dramas and i love gonzaga as well. both got to be balanced, even tough i only meet PDXT on a very small proportion of time.
and to be fair : timothy, i miss you!
