Post #287 I Cry Myself to Sleep Tonight

it’s so sad.

PERGI TANPA PESAN by SORE

Jauh perjalanan
mencari intan pujaan
aduhai
dimana puan
mengapa pergi tanpa pamitan
Lembah kuturuni
bukit nan tinggi ku daki
aduhai
Tak kunjung jumpa
mengapa hilang tak tentu rimba
Laut hempaskan ku padanya
bintang tunjukkan arah
oh angin bisikkanlah malam ini
Hati cemas bimbang
harapan timbul tenggelam
aduhai
permata hati
mungkinkah kelak berjumpa lagi
Oh angin bisikkanlah malam ini
Hati cemas bimbang
harapan timbul tenggelam
permata hati
mungkinkah kelak bersua lagi

not the song (well the song is a little bit saddening).

i wrote about having a bad feeling that something bad that’s going to happen, the feeling still with me. something really bad is going to happen. i don’t know what (well duh! if i know what it is, why would i be really worried?) but i know that i don’t want to be alone if something bad does happen.

i’m so sorry if i do anything wrong or cause that hurt anybody’s feelings or anything. and also thank you so much, for everybody in everything. i am so thankful.

i’m sad and scared; and if tell anybody it would just cause worries and i don’t want to do that. so please don’t take this emotionally or seriously.

i’m no good at telling anybody about how i feel or expressing how i feel because i never know how to. i just know how to listen to people. i just know how to put other people first, before myself. i’m alone because i make myself lonely.

and i’m really good at making sure people don’t hear or see me crying. i am a really troubled person. i’m 17 and all i want to be is a kid; because i never know how it feels to be one.

but i was too young to know how to love her – the little prince

phone, please ring; L.