Post #451 Gather Round, Gather Round

long time no see eh bloggieeesss? i don’t have any excuse or denial but i’ve been cheating on my baby…

…with tumblr

i made a tumblr account a few months ago, and it’s been inactive since, because i was frustated with twitter (it’s only microblogging! i need to macroblog from my phone!) and then i realized that my blackberry supports tumblr, so hell yeah why not, right?

it’s actually easy to use, on the dashboard you can, like, practically choose what you want to post and just bang bang, voila there goes your post. very convenient. and it works like a giant form of twitter! you can reblogged (it’s like retweeting) and you can heart the posts of others. you follow and become a follower of fellows tumblr-ers and bang, you go international!

i’ve had so many dreams and  wishes when i was little and it keeps changing like a buddha reincarnation cycle, one of ‘em is being a writer and i think, at least for myself, i already got that.

i’ve said this to myself a thousand times and once yesterday to abieza, i have a purpose to write and certain post are dedicated to certain friends or big men in the parliament, big daddy J, presidents; THEY MIGHT NOT READ IT, BUT FOR ME IT’S BETTER THAN SITTING IN SILENCE WHERE YOU’VE BEEN GIVEN AN OPPORTUNITY TO SPEAK. not everybody is as lucky, ya’ know?

The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all.

- Edward Renaldi

come on! live a little! do something outta’ your daily ordinary boring stuff, maaan! bungee jumping off a cliff (with professional and safety precautions, of course) or go crazy with your life. be brave.

i think i was brave when i first parasailed. i think i was brave (and stupid) when i lit first cigarette. i think i was brave when i came outta’ my mom’s vajayjay. i think i was brave when i realized i never gonna have a mom and dad, like forever and ever. i think i was brave when i became a senator.

bad things that happens to your life, they suck! and no matter how you complaint and whine and cry and get angry and frustrated, it’s still gonna be bad things. but one thing you can do, get passed it. it happened and don’t waste you’re time wondering what should have done to make it right, BUT PRACTICALLY MAKE IT RIGHT.

i’m an optimistic person and i’m so albus dumbledore – i believe in the very best of people. i’ve had my share of troubles of my 18-years-5-months-and-28-days of living, but i’m not gonna change. why would i change myself to follow the world where i could be different? i’m proud of being who i am.

it sucks being let down by people you believe, that’s the downward hole of an arse side of my personal values. but when everybody are only looking the worst of people, who are going to appreciate them? there are good in each individual, but people are consumed by the negative sphere that they forgot that. for me, that is unfair.

 

semangkuk mie ayam dan es teh manis and kopi hitam dan rokok are megaphones to my voices. so hell, what i wanna say i’m gonna say it.

Post #450 Wasn’t Enough

i have, like, sooo many unpost draft here i just completely forgot to write more. i was kinda busy this holiday you know (and right now is already the end of the second week of the second semester *shy mode on!*)

 

i went shooting for a friend’s short-film, i’m not in it but i helped it ;) click this, it’s the link to the trailer! and click this one for my little project hihihi ;)

 

well, that’s one of the holiday. second was christmas day. that was biiihhhh-zeeeeee! (i was gonna write busy, but it’s more eyecatching isn’t it? i know i got your attention). new year’s? one word would described it. i got wasted. i think it was productive start-of-the-year-night though, all of us just blabbering about the ups-and-downs of our relationships and gave each other advices and the early 4am tea to ooze the hangover LOL!

 

well other than that, i was intrigued by this savage chickens comic “beyond the web”

 

answer these questions for me, will you? i thank you for reading my blog, but also i thank you and kindly ask YOU to GET A MIRROR and ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS TO YOURSELF! i found my answer surprising me but not unexpected.

 

1. are you, yes YOU, an internet freak?
• how many hours a day do you spend online? (gaming, downloading, social networking, youtube, porn *i really don’t judge*, chatting, etc)
• when was the last time your email(s) inbox(es) wasn’t full of social network notification?
• when was the last time your paper or homework assignment without any internet help?
• did you whine and complain when your teacher and lecturer said you have to do your assignment ‘OFFLINE’?
2. are you, again YOU, a smartphone zombie?
• how many social network or instant messaging service do you have in your phone and they are on ‘online-mode’?
• are you checking your phone for instant-messages or social network notification (blackberry messenger and twitter and facebook included!) just now?
• how many times in an hour do you check your phone for that?
3. will you read the rest of this post after you answer this?

again, i’m not judging but isn’t what doug savage got it right in his chicken cartoon?

 

i gotta be honest, i’m a having a long distance relationship. not only with my dearest boyfriend, timothy satyaabieza, but also with my bestfriends so i admit i am one of those smartphone zombies. i’m constantly on my phone, and in my time of need, i chat about it. well, waiting to see ‘em and talk to ‘em in person is a relatively hard option.

 

with the time differences with abieza, when i want to talk to him sometimes it’s gotta be on the weirdest time of day, in the middle of my class or his, my lunch or his breakfast. i don’t mind and i don’t think he is either. i do feel better when i talk to him like that, but i would feel best if i talk to him personally. *this is just one of the obstacle of LDR*

 

with my bestfriends, pretty much the same. not to mention with the pending, the low-battery, and all those yada-yada’s.. not all of us can be with each other at the same time even in chatting.

 

this is the reality – at least my reality *lecturers in my classes always  emphasize on real examples* and how awkward it is when you meet someone new and when there’s this awkward silence, you’d go to your phone – maybe to strike up a conversation topic, or ask the person for social network account – the awkward silence would last longer. whatever happen to good old fashioned conversation? it’s not HUMAN it’s ROBOTIC!

 

my high school family – yes, they are not friends to me, they are my family – taught me in the beginning of our journey there and also what i taught my juniors about during my time there is that the person standing next to you may not as lucky as you to have a phone. our family taught us of 3C (and from my batch) + one more C. COMPETENCE, COMPASSION, CONSCIENCE + COMMITMENT. well, simply to care about others. not just through charity (in which, i’m sorry to say, right now i’m in the most apathetic environment ever that caring is only through an overly exposed action for charity). use your phone in a necessary amount of time and don’t expose it. don’t overly hide when you’re using it too, that’s exaggerating, but just be subtle. NOT EVERYBODY, EVEN THE PERSON NEXT TO YOU, IS AS LUCKY AS YOU. be compassionate.

 

technology is as evil as it is helpful. be wise or be damned. be human for that matter!

 

thank you for reading this, i hope you have pleasant experience and if there’s any comment, feel free to contact me. i do apologize if i offend you, my readers. L.