Post #419 Am I Really Going to Push “Publish”? I Guess So ;)

another stupid video! this time my sister got a little bit more interactive ;) LOL!

well, this video stars me, my sister dorothea disa, and anakin skywalker :D

any whoooo.. i have this video on my blackberry of a battle between two frenemies, i might say, more epic than anakin-obi wan lightsaber duel to the death. with the technology beyooond lightsabers, my two friends erica pricilla and radian kanugroho fought the uber fierce of baseball bat versus a drum stick! LOL much! but it’s on 3Gp format, can’t upload it to youtube –_____-“

i think the next video clip is going to star me and pookie. sister away to bali for another semester, arrgghh. so unless i can convince timothy (which would never going to happen), it’s gonna be me and pookie :P hope between freshman year in college, i’d have time to be silly and let loose like this.

fair warning: there are few videos, E-Rated ones, of me and the girls when we were having a sleepover at my house. never gonna publish it but never gonna delete it as well. LOL! just saying, if you browse me laptop closely, you’ll find it. E-Rated for super embarrassing contents!

Post #418 When I Was 13 I Had My First Love

this is a look of what me and me sister do. just tonight. just this one time. a BRILLIANT cover of justin bieber’s baby!

Post #417 A Long Time Ago in a Galaxy Far, Far Away…

i love you. i know.

taken beautifully from star wars episode 5: the empire strikes back, princess leia and han solo. sooooooooooo romantic, i screamed when they froze han solo. so i’m doing a marathon of star wars today and tomorrow. today i watched back to back episode 4: a new hope and episode 5. tomorrow i am going to watch episode 6: return of the jedi and episode 3: revenge of the sith.

blame abieza for this! i am now deeply in love with it. it all begun with watching the featured dvd: behind the scenes of the whole damn thing wednesday night while waiting to surprise bimo :) the first plan was to watch it and take a little midnight nap on his couch but i just got sooo excited watching how they made darth vader’s helmet.

my impression of the movies was funny, i think. episode 4: when tarkin, darth vader, and all those important death star chiefs having a meeting; in my mind was “wow, a league of super important people with ugly hair-do’s. they must be the bad guys.” and that the death star reminds me a lot of capt. gantu’s ship from lilo and stitch. while in episode 4: this is a total lovey-frenemies-i-ain’t-gonna-admit-i-love-you adventurous love flick between princess leia and han solo. they sooo made for each other.

well, i’m going to sleep now so i can wake up early to continue the marathon to this wonderful masterpiece of art! btw, i think i hurt my left wrist. it hurts when i hold ‘em up or poking it, hurts on the inside. uuuh :(

#np: doctor roberts – the beatles.

Post #416 AAAAaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggghhhh is Appropriate

i woke up this morning with a very horrible uncomfortable feeling and i’m pissed all day long because of it. and add that, at only 9am i was curled up in my grandfather’s bed with a blanket, tearful eyes and pookie to wipe ‘em, my blackberry to bitch about it on twitter, and A HORRIBLE PAIN SHOOTING TO MY STOMACH AND CHEST.

grandpapa was out at the time. grandmama was apparently too busy shouting here and there about what the hell my sister’s boyf doing in her room. because my stomach just too upset to care about it so i decided not to give a damn about it.

well, my dear readers, you can truly see that i am not in the best mood: take a look at my language! so here’s the story about my bitter mind and body …

it all started on a very big day in gonzaga, especially for my friends who’s been working awfully (yes, indeed the work was awful) hard on that some say big event. it was only the opening. before the ceremony started, i sneaked passed my ultimate boss to do a very stupid thing: touch the minister’s car (RI 14; he was barely a week in his post as minister!). *oooouukkkaayyy, this is not an important detail*. skip to the chase, after the opening ceremony which i spent recording WBSO under the very horrible heat, i went to look for timothy because i was terribly dizzy and when i found him my head was just awful and he was yellow (well, i saw yellow spots around him, so yes he was yellow to me). i went home sooo early that day and off to the doctor.

“liver. rest, no school. be back here next week and i live in the same neighborhood as boediono.”

crap!

it was november 3rd, 2009. went to school on the 5th to take a remedial test and the rest was hell. sum it up, made it back to school after a week bed rest (which a week should be a month; so timmy said and later the doctor).

well, that resulted in massive weight loss, loads of nights on the bathroom floor (literally!) throwing up, weeks of not drinking milk (this is hell for me: milk is the main source of my appetite and weight gain), and all that yada yada …

“upper right side of my tummy just below the right boob. and when that hurts, it would go right through to the chest and the most awful nausea.”

#nowplaying california gurls – katy perry; #nowwatching twitter for blackberry & blackberry messenger; congrats to miroslav klose, podolski, matthew upson; good luck for frank lampard; the ref, may you go home in one peace, dude –> twitter ain’t your friend on this match.

Post #415 Out of The Sky, I Close My Eyes

this is my attempt on creating abieza’s imagination :)

this is our dream, me and his:

pahyn*ap*uhl rek*ords

laurenziabieza

amen.

Post #414 Funny Chicken Wing Flap Thing

well, the biggest happening in the world right now is “that thing” in south africa, oui? ja! so why don’t i talk about it a bit here ;)

i’m soooo much in love with shakira’s waka waka which is the official theme song for the 2010 world cup :) but it’s not what i’d like to talk about here. i watched the video clip few mornings ago and i can finally understand what a goal meant for the player.

truthfully, i watched football and, of course, waiting for goals. not because i’m rooting for a certain team or the beauty of the goal itself, but the expression of the player who made the goal; a goal is a present, gift, to his country. he’s proud of where he comes from and, even more, proud that he can give that same feeling of proud. he gives back.

i guess, to this day, people laugh when i answered i want to be president. they laugh even louder and with a sarcastic smile they’ll say, “good luck with that” when i promise that i can change this country, to the better. i don’t disagree when some of my friends want to leave this country of ours because there’s nothing to miss about or be proud of. but then, some of them would say that it’s impossible to change. it breaks my heart (i’m not being hyperbolic or anything, but i do) to hear that. yes, i know change is big. hell, we’re talking about indonesia, it is MASSIVE. but if every single person is just going to all busy wrapped up in disappointment and give up, of course it’s hard because no one believe that the impossible can be done. i believe that and i’ll do that impossibility.

honestly, i have this “spirit of nationalism” because i feel that indonesia is a one thing that i’m proud of and feeling this way closes the gap i receive all my life of being a disappointment (or a result of a misact by my disappointing parents). i feel empty, truthfully. i don’t have parents to come home to or to make proud of. hell, i’d rather die than make them proud, what do they did for me if i do such a great deed? that’s why i fill that emptiness with indonesia, the closest thing i can understand and always here with me all my life.

i may be selfish, obnoxious, loud, and over-emotional but i’m no idiot. i’m not dumb. and hell thanks to bad parenting i know betrayal, hatred, lies, loneliness, and all other horrible things one should not learn by the age of seven; i learn it through the hardest way of being loved and not being loved. reading about how hard heroes fought and died to bring independence and a glimpse of dignity to this country, i just feel guilty if what they had worked hard for forgotten just like that. what they had fought for is not something that last forever without perseverance from us right now. it does not going to run on itself, hold on to it and steer.

#nowplaying dream on by aerosmith :’)

Post #413 THE CLAW

i’m not going to make a review of the movie, let it speaks by itself.

what’s cool about the third installment of toy story (which I waited for 11 fucking years!) is that what andy’s going through with in the movie really relates to what’s going on in my life. he’s off to college and wood buzz and the gang become the representation of part of our life that we have to sort; bring it with me or just let go and move on.

why did i put the quote from that three three-eyed little aliens as the title? the claw became the shine of light in the movie. dear lord, they gave up to the incinerator. they are going to burn to ashes. they just bluntly sat there waiting to be destroyed; together all in all. and then those petite little aliens brought the claw to the rescue.

how you take this lesson is all on you :) for me is NEVER TO GIVE UP and however hard the obstacles in store for you TRUST YOURSELF IN GOD :)

this movie will speak on its own and means on however one takes it so i will not say anything about it. it means to me personally and it’ll be my own little adventure. you go watch it, not just promotional here *i work with neither disney nor pixar :9* i’m the kind of kid who grow up with disney movies. they practically raised me to be who i am today (practically because my own parents never spent a second on bringing me up). that’s why this movie is my own personal adventure and joy. i’m sorry, i just won’t share it :9

“he’s been my best friend ever since i could remember” andy on woody.

Post #412 Green Tea Water Bottle

well this has got nothing to do with music or lyrics; just some random words i put together to make an interesting something.

today was hell of a culinary heaven! practically i’ve never had breakfast (dumb ‘ole me), today i had a brunch at sushi tei with erc and gleny (jesbon had an eye-thing soooo she couldn’t come along *crying emoticons*). this is myself: start with a piece of crispy roll, two pieces of inari, a plate of kani mayo, and another plate of crispy roll (that’s six pieces so total of seven!). after that, i watched toy story 3.

abieza picked me up and off we went to ramen sanpachi 38. we ate a bowl of ramen with four slices of pork! and two (at least, me) slices of jelly. abieza asked for extra, he got three! i asked and he gave me (in an oddly manner :9). after that, on the way home, he craved for some cloud nine chocolate but when we got to hero terogong, they didn’t have any :’( so we bought (well, he bought) us a kinder joy and holly chocolate; both were incredibly awesome and delicious! aaarrrgghhh..

after i got home: my favorite chicken satay!!! so on less eat mode tomorrow. not because of diet or anything, but with the past 8 months with awful liver condition and unstable health; i just cant so much or so less. everything just has got to be on the right portion and certain menus.

aaah, sleepy. off blog, on with the bbm :D

btw, i’m going to stay online (twitter, msn, and skype). chatting just makes time fly *sooooooo junior high* but then, catching up with old friends just feels the best right now :D LOL!

TTYL, off to Bogor tomorrow ;) 

Post #411 Menampar Waktu dan Melaju

judul kali ini dapat diberikan proficiat untuk SORE dan lagunya yang berjudul Bogor Biru.

saya tahu, itu saja.

saya keberatan dengan ke-frontal-an dan perilaku anda. mohon maaf, tapi saya meminta dengan sangat hormat untuk menghapus apa yang anda tulis itu.

 

ini terakhir. terima kasih.

Post #410 Restraining Order

A restraining order or order of protection is a form of legal injunction. The term is most commonly used in reference to domestic violence, harassment, stalking or sexual assault. Each state has some form of domestic violence restraining order law, and many states also have specific restraining order laws for stalking and sexual assault. {wikipedia}

 

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i’m in the worst mood right now {although dinner and world cup with abieza and his parents: the best!}. aaarrrggghhhh :S

all of those names: not to come in contact in any f*ckin way? si? oui!

and netherland won over japs! cooooooooollllll!!!

Post #409 Girl, You’re Gonna Set Me on Fire

i had the weirdest dream in the world! adam lambert was staying on the house in my neighborhood. and he was wearing the stupidest thing as well: B/W striped shirt, gold metallic cardigan + matching parachute pants, and black flip-flops. to add to the madness: i saw him that way when i was in an awfully-colored orange mazda 2 with abieza.

maybe i’m just super duper tired yesterday (sooo tired, i dream of glambert? awful).

right now, i just woke up (usually i woke up this early on a holiday to watch CSI New York, but i’m just not in the mood, so i blog). and i’m getting my camera back todaay!! i stupidly left it at school on graduation night, in my defense it was tiresome like hell and wrapped up in all the hello-goodbyes!

#nowplaying benggong banggong – dwiki dharmawan :) sweet!

oooukkkayy, since a long time now i’ve been wanting to buy the beatles’ sgt. peppers lonely hearts club band album :S

aaaaarrrrrggghhh, i just can’t believe i dreamt about glambert. eeeyyyuuuccckkk!

off to gonzaga now :P

Post #408 Pernyataan

Post #407: tidak pernah ada. tak usah dibahas.

saya akui memang sangat lelah hari ini. oke. irritated, yes. sorry.

yang lainnya, saya tidak begitu merasa kenapa-kenapa.

TERIMA KASIH.

Post #406 Gaudeamus Igitur

Gaudeamus igitur, Juvenes dum sumus; Post icundum iuventutem, Post molestam senectutem Nos habebit humus.	Let us therefore rejoice, While we are young; After our youth, After a troublesome old age The ground will hold us.
Vita nostra brevis est, Brevi finietur; Venit mors velociter, Rapit nos atrociter; Nemini parcetur.	Our life is brief, It will shortly end; Death comes quickly, Cruelly snatches us; No-one is spared.
Ubi sint qui ante nos In mundo fuere? Vadite ad superos, Transite in inferos Hos si vis videre.	Where are those who before us Existed in the world? You may go up to the gods, You may cross into the underworld If you wish to see them.
Vivat academia, Vivant professores, Vivat membrum quodlibet, Vivat membra quaelibet; Semper sint in flore!	Long live the university, Long live the teachers, Long live each male student, Long live each female student; May they always flourish!
Vivat et republica Et qui illam regit. Vivat nostra civitas, Maecenatum caritas Quae nos hic protegit.	Long live the state And those who rule it. Long live our city, And the charity of benefactors Which protects us here.
Vivant omnes virgines, Faciles, formosae! Vivant et mulieres, Tenerae, amabiles, Bonae, laboriosae.	Long live all young women, Easy and beautiful! Long live wives as well, Tender, loveable, Honest, hardworking.
Pereat tristitia, Pereant osores. Pereat diabolus, Quivis antiburschius Atque irrisores!	Perish sadness, Perish haters. Perish the devil, Whoever is against the student fraternity, As well those who mock us!
Quis confluxus hodie Academicorum? E longinquo convenerunt, Protinusque successerunt In commune forum.	Who has gathered now Of the university? They gather from long distances, Immediately joining Our common forum.
Vivat nostra societas, Vivant studiosi! Crescat una veritas, Floreat fraternitas, Patriae prosperitas.	Long live our fellowship, Long live the studious! May truth and honesty thrive, Flourish with our fraternity, And our homeland be prosperous.
Alma Mater floreat, Quae nos educavit; Caros et commilitones, Dissitas in regiones Sparsos, congregavit.	May our Alma Mater thrive, That which educated us; Dear ones and comrades, Who we let scatter afar, Let us assemble.

the song played during our (Kolese Gonzaga XXI) graduation :) from XII IPA 1/1 to XII IPS 2/15 :P

Post #405 Are You Wishing You Were Ugly Like Me?

well the title caught your attention, si? oui!

okay, let’s give the boy who knew too much the credits for the awesome line :) (taken from mika’s blame it on the girls, awesome much! totally recommend that!!)

so for this special post i’ve been planning all day but too lazy to execute, i made a special playlist on my iTunes :) because it calms me sooo much* MUSICTHERAPY is the absolute best!!

1. Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band (The Beatles)
2. When I’m Sixty Four (The Beatles)
3. First Date (Blink 182)
4. Bonamana (Super Junior)
5. Vrijeman (Sore)
6. We Are Golden (Mika)
7. Blame It On the Girls (Mika)
8. Krazy (Pitbull)
9. Being For the Benefit of Mr. Kite (The Beatles)
10. California Gurls (Katy Perry feat. Snoop Dogg)
11. Baby (Justin Bieber)
12. Kenakalan Remaja di Era Informatika (Efek Rumah Kaca)

uhmmm, i want to blog about SHOES tonight! i’ve been searching high and low for the top things must have’s of the whenever! LOL!

the top left.. that’s similar to timothy satyaabieza’s mom boot-wedge custom :P love it soooo much!!! the bottom right is similar to my graduation heels :) mine’s suede black! the flats, grey one, similar to my sister’s flats (only hers is in the VERY AWFUL SHADE OF PINK! yess, pink can be awfuuuullll!!!). the bottom left, i guess, a little resemblance of erica pricilla’s graduation heels (correct me if i’m wrong, dear).

well, i don’t want to be hedonistic or anything, but i just simply love shoes :) i don’t want to own a thousand pair or so but it feels nice to wear ‘em :)

quick truth play here: at home, i’m completely utterly SPOILED! hahaha :P yeaah, i’m spoiled kid! not a brat, but yes i’m spoiled. but i earn my shopping spree, all of it. only if i earn good grades and not buy new outfits on every events (for that is just CRAZY and STUPID). and most of my stuff is hand-off’s and/or second-hand shopped :P

Post #404 Then Billy Brown Fell In Love With Another Man

noooo, i’m not going to blog about some gay relationship.

after a month hiatus, finally i am back to this blogging world. honestly right now i have no idea what to blog about LOL! but this would be just an home-coming post!

as i am writing this i’m watching this crazy man doing a roll on his bed through webca, hahahahaha!!! LOL ;)

truly deeply honestly i  have no idea what to write.

i didn’t sleep at all last night, went to bed at 5.30AM and woke up late in the morning :P

well, tomorrow i have this thing at school so have to wake up early (uuuh, i don’t want to, can anybody wake me up?)..

#nowplaying billy brown; artist: mika; album: life in cartoon motion!

Post #403 Almost One Month

Since i last wrote in my blog :D a lot has happened in the last month. let’s review :D

1. I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL!
2. i bought two new books (peter pan and alice in wonderland & through the looking glass) right after the announcement of graduation *which i haven’t finish it yet*
3. i have been doing yearbook gonzaga class of 2010 like crazy hell! it’s on the work of being published. me, andre jaka, and egi had done everything on layouts and practically everything! we (at least, jaka and i shared similar work ethics) worked all night long with almost no sleep (i slept at 2 AM and woke up at 4AM everyday), presented to erc in the morning, edited at school everyday from noon to few hours after school ended. SLEEP ALL THE WAY in between. there was even one occasion, i went to school with timothy two hours earlier than our layout appointment and i practically slept in the moderator until erc and jesbon arrived.
4. i use a blackberry curve 8250 (gemini) now :D *my graduation gift from my grandpapa :) i got it the day after i graduated around 11 at night, i just got home after thomass’ birthday*
5. timothy and i started laurenziabieza. a soon-to-be creative management company :) we’ve got the most awesome portfolio so far (and it’s not even a month after we gave birth to it :D ), such as gonzaga #21 yearbook, gonzaga zero waste, timothy’s mom: abbe decoration *still on progress*
6. aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh so fuckin’ much to write and super excited for everything!
7. ooh, i had done a fitting for UPH uniform (gray suit and skirt) and soooo excited to pick ‘em up on june and wear ‘em for the next 4years!

right now, instead of working on something i want to make for my friend’s birthday today. but i want to work on something something about layout yearbook gonzaga :D

Post #402 Ten Reasons Why I’m Madly in Love with My Bedroom

1. (soon i’m gonna get it back inside) my small wooden bed :)
2. always the right temperature depends on my mood AC
3. iPod + dock :)
4. (instead of carpets) very comfy sleeping bag LOL!
5. a big window to the roof (just in case someone wants to smoke runaway haha!)
6. laptop + 24hr wifi access!
7. the wall (it’s so damn cool!)
8. the wooden tiles :)
9. three full wardrobes and they’re all mine :D
10. the door :) it’s just a gallery of memorabilia (the PDXT poster that used to be there i gave it to aryo for his going to USA gift).

and from everybody who have been in my room: tante tia om adit, bunda dina, timothy, ina, jesbon, gleny, erc, putri, raissa, faby, and just everybody i didn’t remember. they all feel really comfortable in my room :D

my small bed is right now located in front of the TV. ina always love all the dolls and stuffed animals i have there and named all of them with each of the guy she’s crushing on :) timothy always falls asleep in that bed the minute he got there, adorable.

the sleeping bag i used during DBPJ sleepover at school, jambore, temu OSIS KAJ, and had been with me since the 5th grade had been spread since saturday (17/4) for me to fall asleep on during working on YB. i don’t really like working and typing on my desk :|

before the radio tower was torn down, the function of the big window on my room was to runaway. i climbed down the tower and went back up the tower :) now, with tower gone, the big window is just used for me to slip outside to the roof hangout with a can of beer and cigs.

my bedroom wall is not furnished so it has the old ancient dutch kind of look. it is soooo coool! love it so much. but frankly, the wall is like that because when my grandpapa and grandmama build the 2nd floor they didn’t have any money to finish the wall, so they left it like that and it’s awesome!

the tiles was redone when i was in the 4th grade, before it was carpet :) my grandpapa had the whole 2nd floor redone with new wooden tiles and aluminum foil cover below the roof so that the temperature inside is not tampered with the outside temperature.

it’s just so comfortable and wonderful to be in my bedroom :) add a bathroom and keyboard/piano, i’d never leave! haha :D

for college, i’ll be staying with nita and gleny nearby campus. that’s 4years + 18 months (for me to work) i’m not going to be fulltime in my bedroom. a little bit sad but excited :D

well, TTYL for now :)

oh, and i made two pictures today. the first one got me and timothy in a very laugh-ish shout-ish phonecall and the other one is just plain adorable. so i’m just going to post the second one :D

this is supposedly timothy satyaabieza :) he said it’s cute :D

NIGHT ALL! :) MGLL

Post #401 A Bit Relevant to the Previous One

so today, there was another big soccer match: Social vs Science Gonzaga Class of 2010 :)

got sick since early in the morning and so i went home early as well. darn! went to the doctor though. he said there’s a possibility towards “batu empedu” (what the hell that is. but it sounds scary, it needs surgery to remove it, so God please not that one) but generally, my liver’s acting up.

because of today’s sick day: i can’t go to dufan with my class tomorrow :( i’ve got to rest. then i got so so so pissed and disappointed.

and then, during a phone call timothy mentioned that andriy and himself wanted to come over to my house and visit but they were too tired. but just the gesture that they wanted to really made my day. it cheered me up a lot :D it was so nice of them. it’s wonderful to have wonderful friends :D

yeaaaay *with the stupid grin and tone i always do embarrassingly*

1 med for my breathing suffocation + 1 painkiller + 1 for my bilge before meals + 1 i have no clue what it’s for = 4 very hard sleeping pills! LOL!

off to bed now! TTYL.

Post #400 There’s Something Wrong

the right side of my tummy has been keeping me up all night. it hurts so bad :’( even the pain on my ankle is not really there, because my tummy just got worse and worse as the night goes.

yesterday, all i managed to keep inside me is two glasses of milk, two hot unsweetened tea, and two little breads (roti unyil) everything else i just threw up or, somewhat, i just lost my whole appetite. i spent too much unwanted time on the bathroom floor.

from the afternoon after a little nap, it also hurts a little to breath. it’s like your chest is being step on to with massive shoes. i’ve been feeling this all week actually. the occasional chest pain, and sometimes my heart beats so fast it literally feels like it’s going to blow then the back of my head hurts.

my last hard activity was on monday-wednesday this week. the last three days of school, school examinations. when i was doing the test sometimes there was a very high pitched loud buzzing that would stay ringing in my ears for two-three minutes. and when that happened, my sight just got blurry and there was a bad headache. honestly, this is why when guys on my class played the sound on their phone i got so mad. for me, it’s not just aching pain to hear but it became blurry and all black.

this morning would be the 8th day in a row i woke up at exactly 3:15 AM. since the day after i watched alice in wonderland, i’ve been waking up at exactly 3:15 AM, the clock on the wall would have both hands on the number three and my phone just flashing 3:15. after that i just couldn’t go back to bed because my tummy begun to ache.

medical attention, right now, is a very luxurious privilege for my family. i’m just going to be frank, there’s no money to go to the doctor or for medicine. this is why i cry at night or merely any given time i just burst in to tears because it hurts so bad and i don’t know what the hell is going on.

good morning good morning. imy a.

Post #399 Family

i learned the hard way about it. about mine: THEY GOT BROKEN! that’s the hard cold fact. they tend to brake, well at least mine did.

today another hard cold fact i learn: you don’t have to love all of them. life’s hard and it will punch you in the face. you’ve got to stand stronger. make your own choices, don’t let anyone make ‘em for you.

i still do want to raise my own family. with all its ups-downs love-fights, i still want a family. a whole one. and for my child(ren) to not feel the same way i do growing up.

michael, daniel, maria. i won’t give up for them. the most wonderful things i dream of.

thanks for listening and sharing, a. God blesses you, love.